I’ve been thinking a lot about whether or not I actually wanted to put up this post but I feel like it’s important to share as it may reassure others.
The title is a little misleading but to sum up what happened, I was rejected from the top 2 universities that I really really really wanted to go to and had dreamt about going for a very very very long time.
The journey leading up to me applying for university has been a long one as I was originally going to go when I turned 18 as soon as I left college with my A levels but I instead decided to do another year of college to get another qualification. I was wanting to do a fashion communication and promotion degree and decided to do an art foundation to build up and improve my portfolio of work which was the best decision that I have made because I’ve learnt a lot.
So right now I am in my third year of college and I applied to go to university this year with my top 2 choices being Central St Martins (the top fashion uni in the world) and London College of Fashion (also in the top 10) and I knew that it would be a long shot and that I might not get in. However there was a tiny bit of me that thought that I would get in. I’ve never thought of my work as being exceptional but I’ve always thought it was good on some scale.
When I got that email saying St Martins had rejected me, it was really sad. I had dreamed of going for so long and all that came tumbling down and I kinda lost hope in going to university. My 5th choice was Brighton where I had an interview and actually got offered a place but I always wanted to go to London and I very nearly didn’t go to the Brighton interview, thank god I did. In the meantime I missed an interview for another London uni, Ravensbourne because of a motorway closure and I had given up hope at this point.
I firmly believe that everything happens for a reason and I think that the rejection and missing the interview were all signs that I shouldn’t go to London. While it’s a fab place and they were fab universities, life in London would be hard because it’s a very isolating place. The more I thought about it, the more I realised that I should go to Brighton. Just before accepting my place at Brighton in April, I found out that I was rejected by London College of Fashion which made me realise I was making the right decision. Since then I deferred my place so I am having a gap year before starting university to go and travel and truly figure out what I am doing with my life.
It’s been a very stressful few months to say the least but it has really taught me how unpredictable life is and how the universe sends out signals to make sure you’re on the right path (yes I believe in all that).
It’s obviously very sad to get an email saying that your work isn’t strong enough or as good as other people’s. It does crush you a little because you spend so much time and energy on a portfolio only to find it’s not good enough but it’s definitely not the end of the world. Artwork is so subjective and based on opinion so even though the universities might not like it, other people out there will. St Martins didn’t like my work but Brighton did and we had great conversations about it my interview.
This rejection has definitely opened my eyes and it’s not gonna stop me from dreaming big again but it made me realise that I need a year out to go and travel and learn more about the world and gain more life experience before letting myself back into the messy education system in the UK.
So if you’re in a similar position to me then don’t worry because it’s means that something big is just around the corner. It was meant to happen. Just because it was the top university it doesn’t mean it was the best university for me.